Emma Stewart
Pata Poem
The textile section of Joanne’s Fabrics in Yuma
is everything I know about possibility
all these animals embroidered into scenes rabbits on wicker furniture, patas tucked
neatly against the truth of their anatomy having tea time with victorian ruffs
around their scruffs, which are extra folds of skin to protect their fancy necks
from the dog jaw
sometimes you kick yourself
through another day
sometimes you get someone else through theirs
i get through another day and at the doorway mom says “clean your patas”
until one day I refer to my patas and with surprise she says “no, people have pies!
animales tienen patas”
tengo patas, mama, gimme mis patas,
para ser animal, para nunca ser hija sola
I want those soft, quiet, pada-paws translated
like carpet all over my quiet life, full of fur and nothing words,
the words I use when I don’t have any way to describe how I’m full of these strange velvet
surges for minutes pressing into my throat like hours spent trapped
in a party of rules I can’t make sense of the bend of a spine susceptible to
breaking when sat upright in a chair a neck pressed in on all sides
screaming in itself a word that I cannot find to say /I/ when /I/ is not the
protective scruff or the collar hiding it
/I/ am in my throat when I’m told to use my words
I am using my words I am not using yours
PATA PATA PATA PATA
all over the page, pata pata pata
all over the couch, the chairs,
the table,
the idea of being human one way or another
Emma (he/they/she) is a poet studying at Texas Tech who is finally reaching towards joy in their poetry. When not writing he enjoys learning new crafts and tattooing bananas.